From the outside, sure, my life was picture-perfect: a successful career, loving husband, a beautiful home. But all I wanted was for that pitter-patter of tiny feet. Months of trying to conceive naturally surprisingly turned into 2 years of disappointment. That's when my husband and I made the decision to get help from a fertility specialist (looking back I can't believe it even took us that long to get help - you just don't believe that it could happen to you- anyway). Funny thing is when you get a specialist on board and you're paying the exorbitant costs, you think to yourself, well now it has to work, right? He knows what he's doing? He'll fix it for me. It's almost even more of a let down when it doesn't work the first time.
It wasn't an easy path, both emotionally and physically. The countless injections, hormone treatments, and invasive procedures were daunting. I remember the first time they retrieved my eggs for IVF. The excitement that filled the room. Finally, there was hope.
But as the weeks went by, it became clear that this was not the end. Around October 2022, it all ended in a devastating miscarriage....it felt like a cruel joke. Even science and technology couldn't help us. I was a wreck. I couldn't eat or sleep. I woke up crying. I went to bed crying.
But, we were persistent. I say we because my husband, Ty, was my rock. If he had cracked, I don't think we would have made it through what we did. The journey wasn't straightforward, but we were determined. There were so many setbacks, failed cycles, and moments of extreme, just unimaginable pain. A pain I never even knew existed. But through it all, we held onto a glimmer of hope, trusting that a rainbow baby would eventually be our reality, And it did.
It took us a while - a long while lol. And even as I went through my pregnancy we were very private. Very cautious about absolutely everything. I wouldn't say it was the best time of my life. I was so scared of something happening. But it didn't and for that I can count my blessings. And I'll say this, our journey to parenthood is now our testament to the strength of love between us a couple - the resilience of our spirit and our marriage. It's taught me to embrace the unexpected and to appreciate the miracles that come our way, in there own time.